For years now I been pouring my life into full time ministry and I am finally getting to the point to where I just want to be a "normal" Christian. The church in a Western context is so blah. The consumerism drives me nuts. In the context I am in now (we are a small group of people) majority do not care and the church could close tommorrow and they would just find another church to "consume" from.

There are times when I wish I was in context of ministry where "things" were happening. But the grass is always greener on the other side. I guess.